Saturday, December 22, 2007
My Fingers Hurt
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Early Yuletide Celebrations
Today I went to the Shabby Sheep to stop in for the holiday party as well as to pick up yarn and needles to make presents. Busy as to be expected and warm and cozy. Aside from it being very cold and windy out you would have never know that stepping into the shop. The more people crammed in there the hotter it became. Everyone was in great spirits though. Upon seeing one of my favorite staffers I was given the great surprise of being informed I was getting a copy of a much desired pattern in a sold out magazine. She had spotted a stack of copies laying on a shelf in a local bookstore and grab up the remaining ones to give as gifts. I have been trying to get my hands on that issue since October. It's a very coveted edition. People are selling it on EBay for a ton of money. The Koolhaas hat pattern is going to be everywhere this winter but I don't care because I'll get to be apart of the madness with the beautiful ball of yarn I have for my very own Koolhaas. Sadly I have to wait to make it until I get at least "My Giant's" and "The Hobbit's" presents done. I'm cutting it very close on their gifts. I hope I can finish them in time.
I really need to find someone who can take pictures for me of all the crap I've blogged about but can't put up yet. Once I've given it all away I can throw up images of it all. Well back to knitting. Cheers mates.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
A Sad Day
A Sad Day
I’ve been trying to decide what to do about my Blood Elf Retribution Paladin. I made it to level seventy at last, but as a Ret Pally no one wants to take me along on instance runs. The only way to obtain gear is to PvP for a set; which I hate. Then that will help me become geared to run the many instances for better gear, which will in turn allow me to run instances to get an actual set of Ret Armor with bonuses. Talk about a pain in the ass!
After a month of debating I finally came to a decision. It took being kicked out of an instance group for the third time this week for me not being Holy to take action. My Ret Pally left the guild. I am no longer going to play her. I’ll use her to farm and occasionally PvP on, but I will no longer work on quests and instance her for gear. There is no point in playing Ret until Blizzard decides to increase the damage I do to make me accepted in groups.
I really love playing Ret for some dumb reason. I’ve learned how to play it well and enjoy the dynamics even though I can’t do much damage since it takes me longer to kill creatures compared to other players. I would say I can play my Ret Pally just about as well as I did my old Warlock; which I was great at for those wondering. Now only if my Pally actually did some damage!
I have created a new Holy Paladin to level from the ground up. This was in response to so many fucking people in and out of my guild telling me to re-specialize and go Holy. Fuck them! I love my Ret Pally. I have spent too much time farming her gear and getting Trinket, Rings, and Necklaces to re-spec her and start with nothing. Besides I am a crappy healer. I’d rather start over with a clean slate and actually learn to heal rather than learning on the spot in dungeons.
I was really surprised by the Guild Master’s reaction. He wanted me to re-spec Holy and he’d teach my how to heal properly. Let’s face it; I already have taken up enough of his wife’s time trying to farm gear. I don’t need to take up his time which is even more valuable by having him teach me healing aspects. I’ll just take the fucking in the arse by starting over again. It’s not the first or last time I’ll get screwed over by this game.
So here we are again at level one. It sucks big time but I can at least play a character that people will want to play with. It was the choice of a Healadin or Tankadin. I ain’t no fucking tank, so I chose healer. Yes, I am actually going to level the hard way by spec’ing Holy from the start. It will be a bitch, but at least I’ll be wanted on runs and pick up good gear. Which means I’ll be running everything a million times to get plate as well as cloth healing gear. She is in the guild now and I don’t know if anyone actually knows who she is. Oh well, maybe one day Ret will get the boost it needs and I’ll go back to playing the spec I started with.
I also created a Tankadin, but I don’t know how much play she will get. I think the Tankadin has some rally cool features, but until I can get my new main up and running at seventy she will have to be put on the back burner.
So in conclusion, I have given up on my favorite Ret Pally in favor of playing a Healadin; who is actually wanted in instances and that I can gear easily. It was either start over, or to leave the game entirely. Which I almost did but couldn’t bring myself to do. Well I better get back to playing; I have several more months of playing this damn game the hard way ahead of me. Cheers mates!
Friday, December 7, 2007
I'm Defying Gravity
Thanks to the Guild Master's wife, who let me borrow some gold, I was able to purchase my ridding skill and a flying mount today. I'll have to quest enough to pay her back. She also helped me get the last pieces to my Karazhan Key. Now all I have to do is get some better gear before I can raid with them. Sadly this means I have to PvP. I hate PvP! I totally suck at it. This is the only way to get decent Pally gear so I can step inside Kara with my fellow guilders. All this time I've refused to PvP because I hate it and now I need to so I can get gear that within the next month I'll be replacing. Ugh! I swear everytime I think I'm getting somewhere in the game, I find out somewhere along the way I fucked up or was screwed somehow. Ever since I've started back over, I have had one hell of an uphill battle. This is one steep hill I'm climbing and it never gets any easier. Once I reach the top, I only find myself on a plateau looking up at another hill to climb. Ugh! Well I need sleep. I've been pulling all nighters all week long, averaging a few hours here and there. I feel like crap. I'm going to crash. Nite. Cheers mates!
Thursday, December 6, 2007
It's Good to be 70
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Karazhan Here I Come, Or Not
So, last night I made it to level sixty-eight. I'm so close to seventy! I also started the quest chain for my Karazhan key. Woo hoo! Today I was able to obtain the first key fragment from the quest going into Shadow Labyrinth. I need two more fragments in the next quest. The first of the two going into Steamvaults, will be just about as hard as the very first fragment. However, the second piece on this quest will pose a bit of a problem. I require a flying mount to reach the instance the second piece is in. You can't obtain a flying mount until you're level seventy, which costs an arm, a leg, and a head in gold or your soul to the devil. Unless, of course you are a Druid with flight form then you can enter as early as level sixty-eight. Damn my luck! I'll most likely end up buying the gold online for my mount given that I am very far behind in the game and can't afford to spend time farming 6,000+ gold. There are three groups killing in Kara within my guild. The first has it on farm and has moved on to Zul'Aman. The second is farming it at the present time and thinking about ZA. Finally, the third group has yet to make it all the way through, but is very close to the end. SHIT! I'm so far behind! Not to mention that I plan on staying as a Retribution Paladin since I've spent so much of my quest rewards on Ret gear, plus I like the Ret system even thought the DPS numbers are too low at the moment. So that means that no one is going to want to take me on a raid until Ret Pallies get fixed by Blizzard. Ugh, I want my specialization fixed now! Well I'm going to go get a group together for a Steamvault run to get the next key fragment. Cheers mates!
Monday, November 26, 2007
New Projects
New Projects
So, I started a new knitting project over the weekend. You’ll never believe me when I tell you. I’m using Lion Brand Homespun yarn. How’s that for a glutton for punishment? However this time I decided to go with a solid color that way I don’t have to worry about matching up colors and I decided to knit “It” double stranded.
This project is definitely a Yule gift, so I can’t say too much about it. All I’m going to say is it’s about one-third of the way complete. Thank goodness! I’ve been working very hard on knitting it as fast as possible. Now to keep it under wraps till I can give it away is the next step once I finish it.
Now that I’ve knitted a nice portion of it, I’ve decided that I’d like to find a similar yarn in wool and make a sweater out of it; and maybe even the same stitch pattern I’m using as well. All I know is that it would make one of those nice cozy sweaters which is all you’d need to wear outside in the cold weather.
I wish I had an unlimited supply of yarn and needles to knit projects with. So far I’ve got one skein of yarn in my stash. Everything else is bagged and labeled as future projects. As far as I can count there’s only three: two pair of socks, a sweater, and a pair of gloves. I need needles damn it! That’s my only drawback.
Well I am going to go knit for a while. Cheers mates!
Friday, November 23, 2007
Thanksgiving
Thanksgiving
It’s sort of become a tradition (seven years running if you can count that as a tradition) that I go to the bars and drink for the holidays. This year was no different. I ended up spending the afternoon and onwards at the Pub with the leader of my knitting group and his Beau. Man, did we drink! Shots and bourbon were on my drinking list. Then we ended up going back to the Beau’s place to catch Ugly Betty and drink vodka of course. After a great episode of one of my favorite shows I ended up going back to the Pub and drinking even more. Then I hopped across the street to have a drink or two before heading back to the Pub to have a final drink (shots) and call it a night. I really tried to drink as much as possible because I woke up today a bit hung over. Oh well, what can I say, I like to drink. Oh by the way it snowed on Thanksgiving. Sadly I didn’t catch any of it. I only managed to be out when it was raining on a frosty holiday. Well I’ll keep you informed of my happenings. Cheers mates!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Fuck Off and Die: Knitting Defiance

It seems life is against me at the moment when it comes to my knitting. I am going to have to give the scarf away to someone short enough for the length to look good on them. Meaning a kid, who will never appreciate it for what it’s worth and out grow. Not to mention I don’t know any kids. I am so fucking pissed off about that. I was hoping to wear the damn thing myself; the colors went well with my complexion. I’m going to unravel what I have done with the second ball and bind off on the scarf. I’ll add some fringe and call the fucker done. I’m so over that damn thing.
As for what’s next? I want to start on either two pair of socks or a sweater. I have the yarn for the socks. I only have partial the amount of yarn for the sweater, but I want to get it started. Both projects I need new knitting needles for. I don’t have small enough DPNs for the socks or circular needles in the right size for the sweater. If I had enough money I’d go out and buy every size DPNs and circular needles so I would only ever have the problem of never having enough yarn.
I also need to do something with that beautifully deep sea blue sock yarn that I have. The only advice I’ve been given about the yarn is to make something for either a baby or ornaments. Why on earth would I make something for a baby who will only spit up on it? Don’t even get me started about making miniature ornaments for a Christmas tree. Every time I pass the skein all I can think of is to make a pair of gloves out of it. That is if I have enough; I’d have to wind it off into two separate balls first to find out. I need to post in the FnF yahoo group if someone has a ball winder.
I can’t find the holiday issue of Interweave Knits anywhere I’ve been. I’ll have to hit up a knitting store I guess. I want that fucking pattern for the Koolhaas hat. I’m sure I’ll need new sized needles for the hat as well. I’m thinking quick Yule gifts with a pair of matching Knucks to go along with; easy and simple enough to make. And if I have the time and extra money maybe a scarf to go along with; but it sure as hell won’t be with any of that Homespun shit. I am totally against that stuff in any variegated colors. I’ve learned my lesson; solids are better suited for that brand of yarn.
So as you can see, on all knitting fronts I am being fought. Hopefully things will start smoothing over soon enough so I can get projects out of the way. I now realize why winter holiday knitting is done during the summer; it’s simple, small, easy, and you’re not sitting under a ton of hot wool. Oh well, better late than never I guess. Maybe there will be a Day After Thanksgiving Sale at The Shabby Sheep. That would help when buying all those damn expensive needles.
Well I’m going to go play some World of Warcraft. I’m a level sixty-six Paladin now. It’s only taken me a total of seven weeks to get there. I’ve been playing since July but have had so many computer problems that have forced me to stop playing for intervals at a time. I’m so close to level seventy I can taste it. My goal is to have made it there by the end of the year and leveled another character to at least thirty if not forty. That way I can start New Year’s with a level seventy and another half way on its way there as well. Thank goodness the experience gained from levels twenty to sixty have been altered beneficially.
I guess I will update you later in the week as to what was made of it. Cheers mates.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Ugh... I'm so pissed... I could cry...
Ok, I just posted the following at the knitting yahoo group I’m apart of in
For those of you who were at the last knitting group (c. and d.)… you know what project I’m working on… for those of you who don’t… a scarf… made out of lion brand homespun...
I finally finished with the first ball a few nights ago... I put it
down for a day or two for a breather... its about three-and-a-half to
four feet in length... another ball and I’ll be done... woo hoo...
i picked it back up today to start the second ball...
ARGH... I’m in knitting hell...
when I picked out the two skeins... I looked at color to make sure
when I finished one ball... the second one would pick up as closely
to where the first one left off... smart thinking one would think...
and so it was...
However I failed to take into account the fluffiness... caused by
the tension thread in the yarn... they sure as hell don't match... and I’ve tried to make it work...
I’ve lessened... and pulled tight the tension thread to make it puff
up like the other... its a no go... and you can tell how thin the
thread knitted looks compared to the first half...
I’m in hell... I’ve spent the last two-and-a-half hours trying to
find a solution... other than pulling out all of what I’ve knitted
and shortening the width... or doubling the thread which would never
work color wise... or trying to return it and finding a better match
(good luck on me finding the receipt)...
I’m at a loss... anyone have any ideas that might work... I’ve put it
aside for now so I can cool off... I’m stressed and disappointed... all that hard work seems to be going down the drain so fast... and
until I find a solution... I really have nothing to knit until I can
get different sized dpns for socks...
I need a drink... or two... or six...
I’ll catch you guys later... cheers mates...
It really is sad to do all that work and have it blow up in your face. I’m so over that damn scarf. I need to go and de-stress. But how do I do that when knitting is what relaxes me? Ugh! I’ll find something I’m sure. Cheers mates.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Joined a New Group
Joined a New Group
I just had to say that I joined a new yahoo group. It’s the Monthly Dishcloths group. I found it on someone’s blog. The premise of the group is that there are two dishcloth patterns given out a month on the first and sixteenth. Over the course of seven days from the start date you receive a portion of the pattern. That way over a week you get to see the design unfold before your eyes.
I love that idea. They say the first is a theme for the month best done in a solid color. The second dishcloth of the month is a themed repeatable pattern you can opt to do in a variegated yarn. I’m very excited. I need to go out and buy a ton of cotton yarn to make dishcloths.
I think I’ll be more interested in the second cloth of the month more so than the first. This is mainly due to the fact that I’m not big on the positive-negative style of knitting being done for the first one. I’d be more tempted to give those away as presents and keep the all over repeat for myself.
Damn it, I’m already starting to think about Yuletide gifts already! I know for sure I need to come up with gifts for two people: “My Giant” and “The Hobbit.” I hate this time of year; it’s all one big whirlwind affair. And it goes by so quickly in the blink of an eye. I’m already dreading the madness. More so the cold that comes along with this time of year.
Well I’ll get back to you guys later. Cheers mates!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Ugh I feel like shit!
Ugh I feel like shit!
Just what the title says: I feel like shit! I’m sick. I started to feel bad Thursday night. I woke up Friday morning with a fever. The thermometer said 100.3 degrees. My fever finally broke this evening around eight. What a crappy way to end my week and start the weekend.
It sucks! I had to give up going to
I’ve been in bed all that time feeling icky and not working on my knitting. I’ve finally got one item started and going in a good direction. Of course I can’t talk about it since I’m not sure if I’m going to be giving it as a gift or not; that might ruin the surprise if word got around. I’ve done nothing to the grey and blue scarf. It is the most tedious project to work on. It’s going to take me another year to finish at this rate. But I love how it looks.
And since I haven’t eaten anything since Thursday night I’m starving. For some odd reason I have a craving for scrambled eggs and fried potatoes. Not a fucking idea as to why. We’ve never cooked those two items together as breakfast before in my household. Actually I’ve rarely had them together in my life that I can think of. And the last time I had them was over the summer when “Farmboy” helped make breakfast. How odd?!
Ok now that I’ve checked mail and made myself hungry, I’m going to go cook and then browse the web for more knitting. Talk to you guys later. Cheers mates.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Time Flies
Time Flies
“My Giant” called me up Friday asking me to hang out for the weekend. Friday night we spent at the house partying with twinks that “The Hobbit” invited over. However he had hurt his back earlier that day and spent the entire night in bed leaving “My Giant” and yours truly to baby-sit. Boy do I hate twinks, and of course there is this one who is a total looser that people wanted him to stay as well as he was trying to find any excuse to leave. Not to mention every five seconds he was either stripping out of his clothing or redressing himself again.
Saturday started off with breakfast and everyone getting ready to head to
We all ended up party hopping a few times that evening before heading back to home for a pick up and drop off. “The Hobbit” and I ended up staying at home while everyone else went back to the party. I didn’t want to be out all night drunk. This was a good decision; seeing as how “My Giant” ran into his boss when they returned to
Sunday was an interesting day. After breakfast “My Giant” took the two twinks home and stopped by my place to pick up extra clothing. We ended up taking this three hour tour of
Once back home the three of us began cleaning. “The Hobbit” spent all of last week on vacation and partying almost every night, so the place needed some cleaning. We cleaned every room of the house. This was mainly due to the fact that the new roommate was going to need his room cleaned up before he could move in. We had to find a place for all the stuff coming out of that room as well as making sure the place looked presentable. Then it was decided we were going to tackle the side of the garage that no one sees. Lots of trashing, cleaning, and rearranging went on for such a small area.
By the end of the day the only thing that was dirty was the three of us. “The Hobbit” ran out for dinner to cook while we crashed on the couch. After a long day of cleaning anything would have been alright to eat. Although we were treated to a very delicious meal that no one could stop eating no matter how full their stomachs were. We ended up laying out a blanket on the frozen lawn to look up at the stars, have a smoke, and end the meal with a nice chat.
Once back inside where it was warm everyone pilled into the bathroom to strip off all the dirt, sweat, and grim. Then we decided to watch a movie, which “The Hobbit” only saw the first fifteen minutes of before heading to bed. We finished the movie and sat on the couch trying to watch a program which we both fell asleep to. An hour later I woke us both up and sent “My Giant” off to bed before calling it a night.
The weekend went by fast. Well cheers mates, I’ll talk to you again soon.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I Hate the Cold
I Hate the Cold
For those who do not know me; I hate the cold! Anything below eighty degrees is not warm enough for me.
The Chill
Slowly it crept into the house late this evening while I was asleep filling each room with its presence. Eventually I could no longer ignore it and fall back asleep. Up I rose out of the bed clutching my blanket around me whilst reaching for my robe which had been thrown over the back of a nearby chair. I quickly pulled it on under the blanket, readjusting where necessary as to not let my skin be prickled with its touch.
It was the early hours of the morning and I was awake. I was standing in a dark room shivering, deciding on a plan of action, while trying to find that cozy position before shaking from the warmth I had ensnared in my wrappings. I reached into the crevices of my mind looking for a way to stay warm and put me back to sleep. It took a moment to illuminate, but I had finally come across hot chocolate as a solution.
Springing to life I dashed into the kitchen where it was the warmest. I drew out all the ingredients I would need: a saucepan, milk, coco mix, a spoon, and a glass. I turned on the gas stovetop burner and set to work. The brilliance in the plan was that by enacting it I was guaranteed to stay warm from the flames on the gas range.
In no time was I concerned with the air around me. I could feel warmth spreading all over my body relaxing my senses that had been on edge all night while the temperature dropped. As the aroma drifted up from where I had recently stirred in the mix, I was in my own world again thinking back on merry times. If I could freeze this moment and live in it forever I’d be in a better mood.
Once I had poured myself a healthy cup full of warm chocolate I returned to my room. It was still cold in the house, but I was warming up. I then logged onto gay.com where I ran into “My Giant,” whom I chatted with for a bit before he signed off for bed. I’ve been awake ever since trying to fall back asleep, but no such luck.
Given that I was awake and bored, I thought I’d rant and rave on my blog since as of lately I’ve been neglecting it. This is mainly due to the fact that nothing of interest is going on in my life.
The Latest Knitting News:
I need to find someone that I will be around on a regular basis who has a digital camera and who can keep my knitting updated with recent pictures. I’ve started on a second scarf that looks like it will take very little time to knit up; mainly due to the fact that I’m using larger needles and a bulkier yarn. Cheers for the quick projects! I’m still not sure if I like the color or not. I may end up gifting it to someone; I’m not sure yet.
The first scarf which is going at a snails pace, is I’d say about twenty percent done. I know I’m giving this away when I’m done with it. I’m sick of looking at it already. When will it ever be done? Ugh!
I still haven’t bought the yarn for any of my sweaters. Mainly due to the fact that I keep going out and spending my extra money on drinks and mainly pool. However, I think that may be changing seeing as how “My Giant” and “The Hobbit” now have a bar and game room at their place. The drinks and games are much cheaper there.
As a side note to the mentioned above, my World of Warcraft account is inactive. The prepaid game card time just ran out on it on the eighteenth. Damn, there is always something to turn around and spend money on! But this is something that I love to play; so in the end it’s worth it.
I also need to knit something for “The Queen Bee” for her upcoming birthday in November. Not sure what to make. All I know is it has to be something that can be washable.
Not sure what else to write about. It’s very early and I’m tired. I’ll talk to you guy later. Cheers mates.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
New Bar in Town
New Bar in Town
Last night “My Giant” and “The Hobbit” threw their first major house party. It was a success. The only problem of the entire night was that I had a migraine; which of course had put me in a horrible mood and couldn’t enjoy myself. But the main concern is that it was a hit.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
In Hiding
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Conclusions
I’m going to buy 10-13 more balls of yarn for my Weasley Sweater (pictured left). That way it will be nice and light and I can wear it in the spring and autumn. I also plan on making a slight adjustment to the pattern. Instead of one single initial in the middle on the front I’ll put all three of mine. Since all three of my names begin with the same letter it’s not that big of a problem. I’ll end up flanking two identical smaller “A’s” around a centrally larger one. I imagine it to be similar to a college initialed sweatshirt. I’m sure I’ll wear it around like one. The only problems are that I need to swatch it out and make sure the sizing is correct for the lettering and I understand the principles behind color work. But then I could switch the placement of the “A’s” to go over my heart or on the back. It has limitless possibilities. I’ll get to that road once I sit down and start knitting the fucker.
I am also going to push back knitting the Weasley in favor of knitting another Harry Potter replication. Ron Weasley (played by Rupert Grint, pictured right) wears a burgundy and grey marl long sleeve partially split down the middle of the neck sweater in the Prisoner of Azkaban movie. I like the style of it and can wear a t-shirt underneath it like he did in case I’m too cold or get too hot and take it off. Although I’m going to have to find a new color of marl since I don’t’ care for the burgundy which is a very popular and classic marl color. I like the idea of a green on green marl to match my eyes, but I have way too much green in my wardrobe, at least people have told me so. Maybe grey, black, or brown marls would suit me best given that they are neutrals and I can punch in color behind it with bright t-shirts.
Props need to go out to Gabriel who reminded me of a website that I had forgotten about. I did find a selection of yarn I want to use to make the PoA sweater and at a very affordable price; $30 (American Dollar). Now all I have to do is choose a color and I can have it in my hands in about two weeks time if I’m lucky.
Thank goodness this new project will be more simple and straight forward; making it a quicker knit. I hope I can get it done in time for Hallow’een. By then it will definitely be cool enough outside for me to wear. Cheers mates.
Monday, September 17, 2007
Knitting Dilemma
Knitting Dilemma
Now that I’ve told you I want to get back into my knitting I’ve come across a problem. It arose a few months ago at an annual yarn sale I attended. All week long in anticipation for the sale I staked out the store making sure I knew where my favorite yarns were so I could get there early and grab them before someone else did. Sadly when I showed up five or ten minutes before the store would open I was shocked to see that it had opened early and was packed with women grabbing up all my good yarn.
Damn, I couldn’t get in the door fast enough! Only having three projects in mind to knit I looked for all the yarn I would need for them. I was able to get enough yarn for two of the projects; sock yarn for two pairs and yarn for a hat. The other project in mind was a sweater that almost all the yarn I wanted had been bought by someone already. Once a fellow male knitter arrived he gave me an idea to make a Weasley Sweater instead.
So I went around the displays to find my favorite brand of yarn, Rowan. I made a pair of Knucks (fingerless gloves) in burnt orange out of the Felted Tweed by Rowan. It was that project that made me fall in love with their band and tweed yarns. Anyways I digress, I found the bin that held my yarn and discovered that half of the yarn was already under siege by other customers. My heart skipped a beat or two or six. I politely moved in and started grabbing at as much of it as I could; throwing it into my shopping bag. They got the hint right away and backed off.
When I had a moment I stopped and started going through the different colors I had managed to capture. This was war and every ball counts as a victory. I found I had an even amount of hunter green and royal blue. So I had my friend decide for me. Now thinking back I wish I had gone with the blue since there was more of it. But I ended up getting away with 4 balls of green and a 5th one a day latter that had been found and saved for me. I was so pissed there had been a total of 15 balls in every color that I had counted the day before, even my favorite sales assistant confirmed it.
So depending on my gauge I had 1/3 or 1/2 the number of balls needed for my sweater. The store owner who I was getting on good terms with told me she had a ton of my yarn being shipped that fall and all I would have to do is wait to get it. Argh, that meant I wasn’t going to get to finish a sweater then. So I decided to wait on the project till I could get the rest of the yarn. I even went to other yarn shops looking for my yarn but were sold out of my color or didn’t carry the style.
Since summer is almost at its end in
Each time I get bored I keep going back to a swatch I made from my left over Knucks yarn. I doubled up the yarn and knit a very small 2”x3”rectangle to see how it would look and feel. I should have never made that swatch because I love it. Its stitch size and thickness is wonderful, but to make a project out of that yarn double stranded could be expensive. For a small ball of Rowan Felted Tweed yarn it will set you back $10 (American Dollar). And considering I’m in a sweater phase, that’s really bad news to think about when most adult sweaters will require around 15-20 balls to make, more or less depending on the size. And here I want to go and double the amount needed. Ouch, that will set me back a pretty penny.
So you finally are about to hear my dilemma if you already haven’t figured it out for yourself at this point. I know, I drone on too much; tell me about it in the comments section. This sweater I want to knit that I already have partial the amount of yarn to make; should I knit it single or double stranded? That is where I have come to a standstill. Do I spend $100 on yarn for 10 balls or $250 for 25 balls?
I’ve been trying to make a pros and cons list to help me decide. So far it’s just left me even more confused. Damn logic! I’ve been going around in circles every time I think about the project. So I’m leaving a bit of my list here for you as background information to think over and see what your conclusions are. I would like feed back as soon as possible given that I need to purchase the yarn either in person or via internet (if sold out in the stores already).
This is an all-purpose sweater more closely related to a college sweatshirt that you would wear around to keep warm in; meaning it’s for casual day to day wear. (I know what you’re thinking; all this fuss over a silly simplistic sweater. But I’m the one who has to wear it and be seen in it. I want it to look and feel nice.) If I use one strand of yarn to knit it, I will be making a very light fall/spring sweater (Oct-Nov and Mar-Apr). If I use two stands of the yarn I’ll have a very nice cozy winter sweater (Nov-Feb/Mar). Single strand means I use smaller needles, which mean smaller stitches, creating more time put into the garment. Where as double strands, I can use bigger needles to make bigger stitches and crank it out in less time than the single strand. Cost is another factor which I’ve already gone over. Depending on the thickness of the sweater, the need to have it done in time for fall or winter plays in on time restraints. (It will most likely take a month to a month and a half to knit up depending on how much free time I get to work on it.)
Crap I forgot another point or two that I can’t think of off the top of my head. But if I think of them I’ll add them on as a PS factor. Cheers Mates.
An Overdue Blog
An Overdue Blog
So it seems I stopped writing in the month of August. I became preoccupied over the end of summer with an old obsession which I painstakingly have had to start over from the very beginning.
Some time the beginning of June I bought the expansion pack, The Burning Crusade, to the computer game World of Warcraft. It took me a month to get a friend over to look at my computer and set it up so I could play. I got about two weeks into the game having to start again new at the very bottom, level 1, before my computer had some major problems. It took an entire month to work out the computer problems before the thing was usable again let alone play my game.
Once things were back up and running properly I dove head first into my character; a female Blood Elf Paladin. She is currently Retribution spec’d with some Protection; which could change depending on the need for a different spec in the guild when I hit level 70 for raiding purposes.
It took me two weeks to hit level 20 in the game. Boy, was that some easy leveling! Then there was the month of not having a computer to play on. At the end of July I was able to log back on and continue. I played off and on during the month of August due to the fact that one weekend was my birthday which I didn’t’ play for a week. I also took off two half weeks from playing to get things done.
All in all, it took me two weeks of solid playing like crazy to hit 40. At level 35 I stopped doing quests and started running instances; and have been ever since. It was at some point around 40 that people in the guild took notice of me going instance run crazy. Always hounding anyone and every in and out of the guild for a run. Thank goodness they like me enough to put up with all that.
At 58 I finally was high enough to go through the portal to Outland, the expansion pack area. Our guild master’s wife, who plays more than him, was waiting for me to team up and kick some Outland ass. She has been there for every major event in the game for me. She really does care a lot to help me out so much when she should be doing other things for her and other payers.
On 13 September 2007 I finally reached level 60. Six weeks of solid playing in the afternoons and evenings (or whenever I had a spare moment) got me to the new area content I had once almost had the chance to explore. What a euphoric feeling it was to finally be in the home stretch. Although now, once I’m 70 it will be all about running instances and quests to get the reputation I need for the level 70 end game content. Ugh, it never ends!
The only reason for the insane playing I’ve been doing is to catch up to my fellow guild mates and not get left behind. Thankfully they have barely mastered the first of a series of three dungeons needed for Tier 4 gear before moving on to even harder dungeons. While they continue to farm it for gear needed for everyone I’ll have time to level up, rep up, and gear up so I can quickly get in on some action.
However, I’m at a standstill at the moment. I have found that I suck at questing alone. Depending on the level and number of monsters I can usually take on one and two if I’m lucky. I’m not sure if that’s decent or bad for the type of character I am. So until I can get people to help me out on quests I’m stuck farming items and gold for my character and low level alts that I want to play whenever I can find the time from my Main.
I can’t wait for guild bank storage in the second expansion, Wrath of the Litch King. It will free up so much space I have taken up by items which I intend on using later for various characters. I hear they are coming out with a wardrobe closet also. All those Tier gear sets that you either have sold off or keep in the bank filling up much needed space will then be able to be stored away and used again for fun. All that hard work for sets of armor and you end up selling for space is really sad to think about.
Because of all that game playing I have stopped writing for a while. I now intend to pick back up blogging about my life. I have seen that a very few number of people have actually taken my poll on what I should write about. The majority last I checked wanted to hear about my knitting, which is a very good topic to talk about. Sadly nothing is happening in my knitting world. When I started playing WoW again I stopped hanging out at the yarn shop as well as stopped going to my knitting group meetings. Very bad of me, I know.
I hope to change that now I’ve gotten to a point I can ease up on the game playing. Summer is almost over in
Well I guess that’s all for now, I’ll have to write some more when something inspires me or happens to me. I hope you continue to read my blogs and give me feed back. Cheers mates!
Monday, August 13, 2007
Let The Good Times Roll: Day One
Let the Good Times Roll:
Day One
My birthday celebrations started approximately two to three hours before midnight on the tenth of August. While bored and browsing on gay.com, I ran into “My Giant,” who I ended up chatting with via instant messenger, phone, and web cam all at the same time till midnight discussing all sorts of interesting matters. He wanted to be the first to wish me a happy birthday. Once we had departed each others company I stayed up reading for a while before turning in for the night.
I awoke that morning to receive a call from “Farmboy” who wished me congratulation. I tried to get him to come down for my birthday, but had no luck; neither did “My Giant” once I phone him up to try his luck. I told “My Giant” I’d be by shortly before he would be clocking out of work. I spent the day relaxing at the house waiting to see my best mate to play pool and have a beer with; which was the only thing I really wanted for my birthday aside from getting to see “Farmboy” who wasn’t going to show. Finally it was time to shower and dress; I decided to dress up since I was tired of wearing the same old crap day in and day out.
I caught a ride over to the shop from my brother once ready. It was good to see “My Giant” again; I never seem to get to hang out with him enough. We chatted for a while as he finished up work. On his smoke break we called “The Hobbit” to let him know that we were going to be stopping in at our favorite bar for a little celebrating and that he should come join us then head to “The Mad Hatter’s” post-birthday party later on that evening. That however was not what “The Hobbit” had in mind. His agenda had us coming home for dinner and then deciding on something to do for my special day and have me stay the night. Not entirely what I had in mind, but I was happy he wanted to do something for me.
We compromised; “My Giant” and I headed to play a few games of pool and have a drink, which our bartender bought for me, then we drove home to meet up with “The Hobbit.” Dinner was had quickly, “My Giant” showered and changed, and then we were back at square one with what to do. “The Hobbit” didn’t want to go out since he wasn’t feeling good, leaving the choice of stay in with him or go back to play pool. We opted for the latter of the two options.
Once back in a familiar setting we grabbed a drink then made a bee-line for the pool tables with a roll of quarters. It was nice just the two of us hanging out; we rarely get to be on our own. Every now and then someone would run into us that “My Giant” took the opportunity to divulge it was my birthday and how old I was. I’d have rather that information have stayed between the two of us. I’m no longer young enough, cute enough, and thin enough to score free drinks off people at the bar, since my bartender would be the only person to buy me a drink the remaining of the evening. Damn getting old!
Seeing as how the two of us were trying not to spend a lot of money, once the roll of quarters were gone for pool we opted to make rounds of the bar and head upstairs. I was fine with the heat, although “My Giant” seemed to be sweating buckets on the open second floor balcony even though the sun was low in the sky. This is when we ran into a very old acquaintance, “Strawberry,” that I hadn’t seen in several years. He was there with his husband and another couple. We caught up on old times and discussed what was new. He and his husband will be moving somewhere close to me within the next month or two if everything goes though on the paper work for their house, which is a good and bad thing. Along time ago I had the opportunity to fool around with “Strawberry,” nothing serious but I had always wanted to play with him more.
This re-acquaintance however was not going to spark that old memory back into play. It seems “Strawberry” thought “My Giant” was the hot one of the two of us and wasn’t paying me the least amount of attention asking questions about him. That is just typical; any guy I’m interested in always seems to think my friends are hot rather than me. Oh well, we told him about “The Mad Hatter’s” party and hoped he would come giving “My Giant” his cell number before we ventured in given that “My Giant” was drenched from the heat.
Once inside we found the non-smoking lounge and plopped ourselves down to chat for a while trying to pass the time till we could go to the party. At some point I asked him to hand over his cell to make a call. That so totally didn’t happen. I messaged “Strawberry” saying he was “cute;” I chose that word since “My Giant” had used it when I told him what we were off talking about. I love to instigate things. “My Giant” wasn’t pleased but I said he’d get over it in due time. A minute later he received a message with the same. This was too funny; we spent the remainder of the time playing phone tag while waiting to leave.
Stepping into the hallway we took a smoke break looking at the time. It was so close till “The Mad Hatter” would show up but too early to leave since the bar was so close but a nice dive away. About fifteen minutes till eleven I suggested we leave, pick up some beer (it was a b.y.o.b. bar), and head on over to the place. I stepped outside and told “Strawberry” we’d be leaving to stumble onto a conversation of disgusting humor. I hit the loo since I had to go so bad, to find myself listening to a similar discussion I had just left. I made it quick and walked hurriedly out.
Walking back to “My Giant’s” truck I recounted the two tales of similar interest I had just heard before deciding on where the best place to get beer would be since we needed cigarettes as well. A quick stop at the local gas station and we were back on the road. Putting the address into his GPS system I recognized the area we were heading to. Both “My Giant” and I, an old friend, “Blondie,” and “The Wizard” had all worked for the same company only a few blocks from the bar. In fact “Blondie” had lived in a set of lofts that held a swingers club at the opposite corner from where he worked.
We had a hard time finding a place to park since the small parking lot was full out back and it’s not the best neighborhood in town; we ended up along the side street. Not wanting to go in yet we called “The Mad Hatter” wanting to know where he was. He was still at dinner taking shots of tequila with a group of twenty-five friends; we had time to kill. Somehow Harry Potter came up and I was off and going on that subject, which was good because I could have a discussion about that for a long time.
Time seemed to pass quickly as we went from topic to topic. The next thing we knew “Strawberry” and his husband were on their way asking for directions. It didn’t take long for them to find the place. Since the two of us hadn’t been inside yet our new comers weren’t in a hurry to go in either since the host hadn’t showed up yet.
We spent about fifteen minutes loitering around in the street talking about various things before I had to go in to use the toilet again; beer runs right through me. Through the back door and into a nicely lit and very charming tavern we stepped. I asked for the loo and took my leave. Upon returning we just stood around talking before the bartender came by and I asked her about us bringing in our beer. It turns out they don’t have a liquor license so they sale beer and mixers but not liquor. You have to bring your own liquor not beer. Damn, that means we’d be heading to the car all night long.
It was apparent we were new to the place standing around with nothing to drink and trying to make small chat. As the bartender passed again I asked her about the huge refrigerator I was standing next to; she said to have a look. It was the last thing I expected to find when I cracked it open; full of nothing but frozen pizzas and mugs. I quickly shut it and laughed. My friends asked me what was in it, so I told them to look for themselves. We all had a good laugh.
I was getting thirsty sitting around doing nothing so I said we should head to the car for beer. It was at the moment “The Mad Hatter” called saying he was pulling into the parking lot. So we ran out to say hi and down a beer. “Strawberry” took me aside and told me he was taking off and to have a good time. I told him to let “My Giant” know instead of me. “Strawberry” in a later conversation told me after finding out what happened that night that he wished he had stayed.
Once done saying goodbye we headed for the truck and downed a beer each before heading back inside. As we re-entered and found “The Mad Hatter” he told us that people wanted to know who the four gay guys were. We broke out again into laughter. Apparently we are obviously gay, which I didn’t think any of us came across as except for me. But not to worry everyone there was laid back and open minded.
We heard there was a “band” we shouldn’t miss that was performing later on and that we should grab a drink courtesy of “The Mad Hatter.” While ordering I saw this hot blonde guy next to me asking for mixers with a bottle of vodka in hand. He was a bit young for my tastes but still hot. Next to him was an older woman I had seen him making out with as I was waiting for my turn in the loo earlier. She seemed familiar and I couldn’t place where I knew her from; she has great taste in guys. Next to her was this girl all in red leather with nine inch heals on I had seen floating about
“The Mad Hatter” after putting on his birthday gift, a cheer leading uniform, took us around introducing us to all his friends. Occasionally here and there “My Giant” recognized someone that he once had met while he and “The Mad Hatter” had been a couple. It was fun meeting all these really fun and interesting people, my kind of crowd. I met so many cool people that I could now only recognize by site. This was turning into one hell of a party. Several people had been here before and knew to bring liquor, so it was being passed around generously.
At this point in the evening everyone seemed in good spirits from whatever they were on and it was time for the bands to start. The DJ had been playing club music all night long, but it was the alternative bands that people were here to see. It’s been so long since I’ve been around creative artists on a regular basis that I forgot how wonderful they are. There were some really talented performers. I really liked the guy in the mask who sang dirty lyrics to children’s songs. He was the best and a good voice at that.
I took down “My Giant’s” order and headed for the bar since he was trying to drink lightly while he talked to some hot guy in a cowboy hat. The lady from behind the bar seemed to have forgotten who I was and I ended up paying for drinks even though “The Mad Hatter” said we were on his tab; oh well who cared at this point, we were having too much fun to care about money. It was at this point I met the girl, “Snow Queen,” I had been seeing all night long. She was the one in the very tall platform shoes floating about. She was one really cool girl.
Eventually the night wore on, I grew restless since there was no one to hit on, and I was tired of girl talk. I ordered a pizza and found a nice quiet booth away from all the action to sit back, eat for the first time that day, and watch the crowd while nursing my beer. This was one hell of a day, I was glad we came to the party. I ate all but one slice, grabbed another beer, sought out my mate to finish the last slice, and watch as I saw people take my lead and order pizzas to quell their hunger. I’m going to have to come back here again as soon as possible.
The hour was late and the closing time approaching. Everyone was in that lazy state of mind where they’re all around chatting and sipping on their drink while enjoying the atmosphere. It was then when I bumped into the hot blonde guy, who I found out was really thirty-two not like twenty-three, and his mistress. It finally hit me where I had seen her. In fact I had met her not too far away from here at the swingers club that I had once went to as a night of frivolity. I had also seen her at the wedding of the owners of the club which I caught the bouquet at. It was a good laugh after we realized where we knew each other from.
Last call was had and people were rushing around trying to find belongings and make sure that everyone knew about the clothing optional pool party afterwards in
With the address in hand and directions on the GPS we set off to find the place with “The Mad Hatter” in tow. This was a good opportunity to revisit the time I had first met “The Mad Hatter” and fool around with him again. After a while of being crunched in the middle of two guys in a small truck we finally made it there after much heated debate on an off hand subject. We were the first to arrive and met the host, a Burning Man attendee, that’s how everyone knows each other for the most part.
As people started to arrive I downed my beer and had another cigarette while “The Mad Hatter” and “My Giant” stripped and jumped in the hot tub. People started arriving stripping down and hopping in grabbing a drink before they did. This party was just barely getting started. It wasn’t long before someone talked me into jumping in with my very expensive swimsuit on and to enjoy myself.
While in the hot tub “The Mad Hatter” and I fooled around since we were two of the three queers at the party and the third had gotten out of the pool and dressed again. I ended up stripping out of my swimsuit having “Snow Queen” hide it with her belongings. It was a fun time being completely free, drunk, and with great people. I even got to make out with the hot blonde guy. I knew I didn’t have a chance with him, but it was still hot. His mistress was very much wanting to get us two in bed with her, which didn’t sound bad at the time, although I would have probably stayed away from her side of the bed.
Time seemed to have sped up and the next thing I knew “My Giant” was leaning over me saying that it was nearly six in the morning and that we needed to get back. Given the option to stay I decided against that since the only person I really knew at the party hadn’t driven either. Although now I kind of wish I had stay to play around since I heard there was a lot of that going on after I left and even one couple in a bedroom as I was leaving.
We were racing the rising sun as we headed home. We made a stop at my place for clothes. I barely retrieved the essentials in my drunken stupor before jumping back in the car again. The sky grew lighter with hints of pinks blues and yellows chasing away the black and grays. It was a beautifully quiet dawn waiting to happen. Slowly, the nearer we approached our destination the more animated the sky seemed to glow. It was like a beautiful dream; this twilight was a great birthday gift from nature.
The next thing I know we are pulling off the highway and driving down an all too familiar road. The sun had not yet rose and was at our backs; we were ready to be asleep. In the drive we pulled wrenching open the back gate and into the house. We stripped and climbed into bed with “The Hobbit” passing out as my head hit the pillow. Blissful sleep engulfed me as the sun rose without my knowing and I was off to dreamland to start the day.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Birthday
Birthday
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Free Schedule
Free Schedule
Friday, August 3, 2007
The Ill Advised Weekend
The Ill Advised Weekend
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Quick Update
Quick Update
So we are supposed to go camping this weekend. I can’t wait to have more fun in the woods. Hope I can get “Farmboy” to come with us.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Christian Coulson Petition
As many of you should know from reading my blogs, I am an avid Harry Potter fan. Today as I was researching more information about the story line I ran across a very interesting website that I did not know existed. It seems that the Warner Brother Studios, who own the rights to filming the Harry Potter series, are planning on slighting an actor who has already given a portrayal of a character on the big screen. Christian Coulson has already had the honor of playing the teenage Tom Riddle Jr. in the Chamber of Secrets movie. Now the studio is say that he is too old to play the character in the Half-Blood Prince as he nears the age of 30. What filthy hypocritical assholes! They have actors sometimes ten years older than their characters play young roles. Why on earth are they going to refuse the right for this actor to reprise a role he wants to come back to? The site I ran across is a petition to sign asking the studios to give Mr. Coulson another chance at the role. Of course I signed it; I’d be an idiot not to. I’ll leave the link for anyone who wants to sign it as well. I was number 1,676 to sign out of the 2,500 needed. I hope that all of you who read this entry will take the time to add your name to the list. I also will leave after the web address the comment I left on the petition.
http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/fans-for-chris-coulson
The man has a fierceness that captures the essence of the arrogance his character exudes. After seeing him perform in the Chamber of Secrets, I can’t imagine anyone else portraying the roll of the teenage Tom Marvolo Riddle Jr. now that he has placed his interpretation of the role on film for millions of people to enjoy. Continuity is an important must now that we have delved farther into the series. Ten years from now, these will be classic movies that people will hearken back to, wondering why the studios acted foolishly by switching actors; that is, if they make the switch. I can’t see how the fact that he is a few years older will impact his ability to perform a role that he has had the satisfaction of playing once before, given that he was a total of six years older than the age of the character he was playing at the time. He still looks as young and has had more experience from acting to add to the sublet charms his character posses. For the studios, this is just another several hundred million dollar profit they will be making on the Half-Blood Prince. But to all the millions of fans who are willing to spend their hard earned cash, it truly is a magical experience to see their favorite series projected onto the silver screen. Why ruin it by making this mistake? It is true that not everyone will always agree with how a book is turned into a film, but fans will most definitely boo a major decision like this. I beseech you, as well as do the many millions of other fans out there, to do the right thing. Bring back Christian Coulson to the films! He is a worthy actor of this recognition. On this note I leave you with: “Do what is right, not what is easy” as Dumbledore would say.
Thanks for reading; hope you sign. Cheers!
A Series of Unhappy Events
This past Saturday I received a call from “The Hobbit” asking me to join him at our usual bar until his husband also my best friend, “My Giant” clocked out of work down the street from where we were. Of course I put it into high gear and was out the door and on my way help our barman babysit him.
I arrived at “My Giant’s” work to find he had taken a break to visit his husband. So off I strolled down the busy colorful street. About a block away I saw him exiting the bar lighting a cigarette and coming towards me. As he drew nearer I knew he would be heading back to work. We stopped long enough to hug and exchange pleasantries and comment on the fact that “Farmboy” might end up coming down to visit this weekend. Of course I was excited but at the same time wishing I had chosen a better outfit to be seen in since I had worn the exact same clothes the previous weekend on our camping trip.
After parting company with “My Giant” I quickened my pace to reach the all too familiar doors leading to a dear friend. It didn’t take long to scan the afternoon crowd to find who I was looking for. I walked up to him wrapping my arms around “The Hobbit” and said hello. He was immersed in a crossword puzzle that he had teamed up on previous to my arrival. We replenished his drink and grabbed a new drink for me as well before we headed back to our table to see if we could complete all the answers.
The puzzle proved harder than imagined since we couldn’t remember the titles to several of a disco diva’s songs; given that several of the clues were of that reference. Having given up, we soon found ourselves with an enormous amount of time on our hands. To disperse of that time we made a few phone calls asking fiends to come out and join in the entertainment. I ended up exchanging a ten dollar bill for a roll of quarters so we could pass the time with pool like I always do.
By the time we had each won a game, familiar faces started showing up. In particular was “Partboy” who had just arrived from work. I had a burning question I needed to ask concerning his work and a product they may or may not carry. I was happy to hear that it was sold there and needed to show up when he was working to see if it was in stock. I can’t wait to get my hands on this new toy; the recipient will be very happy to open this gift.
What seemed like only minutes could have been an hour before “My Giant” appeared again declaring that he was finished with work for the day still in his uniform. We had a nice gathering of people we knew and were taking turns playing pool, chatting, or working on that infuriating crossword.
The afternoon was spent with everyone laughing and talking as they drank. The next thing I know, I’m hearing a conversation coming out of “The Hobbit’s” mouth that I know for sure that not only had “My Giant” said not to mention in public earlier, but I as well had, turning gabbing his attention and reprimand him for bringing up so casually to an acquaintance. My comment being brushed aside by “The Hobbit,” I immediately sought out his husband to back me up in what I had just said.
This however didn’t go quiet the way I had planned. Yes, “My Giant” did indeed pull his husband aside and explain what he had just heard, but “The Hobbit” having had a few drinks took high offense to this “ambush.” He returned to the table where I had been chatting trying to keep an eye on the conversation that was at hand, to berate me and give me the cold shoulder as I apologized for having pulled rank.
Never having been on the receiving end of one of “The Hobbit’s” disputes I had no idea as to how to handle his anger seeing him walk away to the bar for another drink. It was my turn to challenge “My Giant” in a game of pool to which I played very badly seeing as how my mind was elsewhere. He leaned up against me mid-game trying to give me pointers on how to reconcile with his husband; I replied I had just said almost the same thing word for word.
A moment after having received his drink, “The Hobbit” returned to the table to where I was being nudged to go over and attempt once more at an apology. I stalled by taking my turn, missing, to hear from “My Giant” that he had walked off to the bathroom and now would be a good time to corner and talk to him. I took a sip of my drink for courage.
Running after “The Hobbit” in pursuit, I opened the bathroom door to find that he was not in there. Nor was he anywhere around the bar as I turned to head back to the pool table. I reached “My Giant” to relay what I had found, or the lack there of finding the person I was after, to a puzzled and concerned expression. He picked up his cell phone, to which it was apparent who he was calling, while I eavesdropped.
Things were certainly headed down hill as I listened to a pissed off man tell his husband that he was going home. Why on earth do things have to be so difficult? “My Giant” abandoned the game to take this phone call outside. Whatever else was said in the heat of the moment I do not know. Several minutes passed before he re-emerged into the bar taking up his pool stick to finish the game.
Sitting over our beers gabbing, I grabbed “My Giant’s” cell stepping out the front doors to make a phone call. Judging by the time I had arrived to the time it was now, “Farmboy” should be close to parking his car in a nearby lot and joining us for drinks. Hearing a familiar voice on the other end of the phone, I asked when we might be expecting him. Sadly I heard a reply in the negative. I told him that I missed him, then proceeded onward to asking if I would be expecting him this upcoming weekend to go camping with us. This time I received happier news. I was filled with excitement. I asked how long it would take him to move this week hopping it might not interfere with him coming on the trip. Again more good news; it would take a few hours and all would be done. Knowing I had had a few beers in me I drew the conversation to a close before I said something stupid letting him know I couldn’t wait to see him again.
Feeling better that something was going right I suggested “My Giant” and I head upstairs to hang out seeing as how the sun was getting lower in the sky. We walked right into an old familiar face I hadn’t seen in years. He briefed us on his moving away for a few years and his return a few months ago while introducing his friend who took a liking to me the moment he set eyes on me. We all talked getting to know each other. The old friend and “My Giant” hit it off right away leaving me to get to know the new guy.
Being left alone and having revealed a portion of information about each other, the guy I was talking to started making his affections known. I tried to resist his efforts by getting to know a pair of ladies who were mindlessly staring around the bar. Starting a new conversation with new people seemed to work for now. I ended up buying a martini after I slowly finished my Guinness sharing a sip of it with my new girl friends.
At some point I took to the bathroom to relieve myself. Upon exiting and catching out of the corner of my eye in the non-smoking lunge, I saw where “My Giant” and our old friend had disappeared to deep in conversation. I stepped in and beckoned them back out to the crowd that was starting to gather on the upper deck.
The six of us stood around till a table cleared then we all huddled around it talking the night away. Somehow someone in our group knew a guy that came up and started talking to us. We were then surrounded by a group of his friends. Come to find out they all play softball for various gay teams which I know people on. We talked about my having played rugby and how most of them wish they had the extra time to play as well. Sports talk filled the air for a while before the ladies took off to go home for the evening. Suddenly after their leave, the softball players took off for another bar leaving the four of us alone again.
The guy who I seemed to have attracted some how took this as a sign to start again with his advances. “My Giant” at some point told him that I was taken emotionally which I was half listening to before I realized what he had said. This guy wanted to know if my ass and cock were taken since my heart was. Great, how the hell was I suppose to answer this? Yes it’s true I like “Farmboy,” but it will for the time being not be anything more then a fling. On the flip side we are not a couple and I have no obligation to be faithful to him, yet I felt the guilt as if I were his monogamous partner.
I somehow sidestepped the question just as “My Giant” answered his phone walking inside. We sat around for several minutes before noticing he had not returned. I took this opportunity to make a round of the entire bar both upstairs and down to find him. No luck as I would have it. The three of us remaining made up our minds to head down to keep an eye on the doors. Luck would have it that I ran into a friend that I asked if he could drive me home as soon as I found a way to ditch the two I was with and finish my game of pool I had started before he showed up.
Given the game plan, my ride was supposed to meet me across the street in front of the coffee shop. Fate seemed to have liked this plan, because as soon as he was gone and the game over my two companions wanted to leave for another bar as I refused saying I was going to stay looking for my friend. With them walking down the sidewalk with their backs to me I hurried across the busy intersection greeting my friend.
Out of nowhere a friend working at the coffee shop that I had seen earlier on his break at the bar summoned me to buy him some pizza from across the street shoving the money into my hands. My ride and I consented and made the pit stop. While in the pizzeria the smell of fresh pizza seized me. I was going to have to come back as soon as I delivered the requested pizza with change. Ugh, I was starving and hadn’t realized I hadn’t eaten at all that day. I counted the remaining cash I had on me and was told I could order a small pizza; I jumped on it.
It took what seemed like forever to cook while I talked to my friend and impatiently watched TV with him. Soon we were off again heading towards his car with pizza in hand. I managed to garble down a piece of the scalding pizza as we drove towards my house. The conversation was light and easy. I asked about his love life and the last I had heard of it. It shocked him to lean that I pick up on subtle hints that he had mentioned on prior occasions and knew more about his love life than he suspected me to know. I also invited him to go camping with us; which he may or may not do. Dropping me off and giving me his number again I waved him off saying he should think about camping.
I had no idea how drunk I was from not having any food in my system. By the time I reached my bed tearing off clothes I was barely able to make out the pizza box that I was cracking into. I managed to finish off two-thirds before I couldn’t eat anymore. I returned a phone call in my drunken faze to “Queen Bee” and tried calling “Farmboy” who I was missing and wanted to cuddle with so awfully badly. I stowed the box away took a piss and landed on my pillow before I was passed out; so much for a crappy evening that ended quite abruptly.
Peaceful sleep did not come easy. It was filled with dark images that haunted me. Around five-thirty in the morning having tossed and not able to find a comfortable spot, I woke to a dizzy state. I wondered what “Farmboy” was dreaming of; and had he found peace in his subconscious mind. I lay there trying to picture him on his bed in his pajamas with the sheets pulled halfway around him as he lay on his side with a grin on his face peacefully. I wanted his fingers entangled with mine; his breath pulsing on my neck as we lay there together drifting off to sleep.
The one great thing I can say about “Farmboy” is that no matter what I imagine in my mind, being in his presence is greater than anything I could ever dream up. He has a great aura about him. He puts me at ease when he’s around. It’s the rest of the time that I’m away from him that my mind starts to wonder and confuse itself. “My Giant” is right, I need to stop thinking about the ‘what if’s’ and live in the now. If there’s anything that troubles me about the two of us I should ask “Farmboy” instead letting fear creep into my mind. After all it’s a sign of trust if I’m willing to share with him my thoughts.
As the moments passed, thinking back over all the things I didn’t know about “Farmboy” and what I wanted to ask, I finally was able to find some peace of mind again. I reached up turned on a bedside nightlight and groped around for the recognizable texture I was looking for. There under my hand I picked up the thick novel and began again where I had left off on the Harry Potter adventure I was rereading. Shortly after ending a chapter I grew tired again. Thinking of wrapping my arm around “Farmboy,” I drifted off to sleep again for a few more hours of peaceful sleep this time.
Upon waking I grabbed the computer to check my e-mail. To my horror I found that I had received a message from someone that I hadn’t expected to have read my blog. He had found my blog through another site that I had listed the webpage on. I was furious with myself. How could I have been so careless as to let someone I detest with every fiber of my being read the inner workings of my mind, body, and soul? I was disgusted. He knew about the mundane goings on in my life. I felt robbed. He should have never been able to read about the people I care most about in my life. Even though I’ve given them aliases, he still knew about them. I wanted to vomit.
What’s worse, I realized the fact that he can read my blog any time he so chooses. I’m sure he has bookmarked the page so he can scan it everyday since he has nothing better to do than keep up with the on goings of someone’s life who he is no longer apart of. I felt violated. I knew that anyone could read this blog at any given time from anywhere in the world. What I didn’t realize was that by ‘anyone’ that meant people I so choose not to interact with in life. How could I be so stupid as to outpour my heart blindly about people I love knowing that there are vultures out there waiting to feed, that I don’t want them to know anything about me?
All day my mind was clouded with this fact. I felt naked and robbed as I tried to put it from my mind. I spent the day reading to take my mind to happier places. Now I am trying to figure out a way to hide this information from those who I care not to have reading this. What am I to do? I am sure there is no sure way to stop him from reading my private thoughts that I write down; that my only option is to remove all the content and stop writing about my life altogether. But if I do that then he has won. Maybe not an obvious victory to him, but a victory in the fact that he has made me want to hide from him even further.
I’m tired and frustrated. I’m taking leave to read and then find something to eat. I will attempt to keep everyone up to date on my life as soon as something interesting happens. Cheers mates.
